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Thursday 25 April 2013

in love with BFF

Well hello everyone,

so today I would like to share my story and to discuss about BFF...~~~
everyone here i believe you guys have your own sweet BFF or best friend forever which you treasure the most...RIGHT????!!!!

hehehehehe

i do... well, basically i have plenty of them which i treasure and it depend on  each state i studied last time, university or schools hahahahahha


but i would not focus on girl BFF but more about guys.. muahahaha...well it is normal okay..i'm a girl and what do you expect...plus i'm straight hahahaha....
 thanx to google for this cute pic..hehehe 

so basically, do you guys believe that, there is no such thing as guy and girl normal relationship?
of course there are ...out there. (very rare)..but most of the time, one of this couple will eventually fall in love to one another, either the girl first or the guy first...
while some will create a sad love story when the one who fall in love do not dare to confess his or her true feeling and buried it deep to save the friendship....
wow.... i believe most of you, who are reading this now, will eventually remember your past, your sweet memories about your lovable ones.... hahaha true... like the film..."KUCH KUCH HOTA HAI"
- eventually, after ages only you will discover that the one for you or so called your soulmate is the one who are just beside you ..that always be there for you ..not knowing anything you secretly fall in love with your BFF....keep deny it huh.... well...it is normal.... i did...last time... muahahaha (evil laugh)

             p/s therefore i recommend you guys go watch "Soulmate" korean drama...seriously...okay

so here goes my sad love story hahaha.... not very sad actually...just that when you read it to the end you will understand and some childhood memories will flash back in to your memory like slides hahaha


first one = i was in standard one when i know the feeling to treasure something deeply...hahaha too young huh... well doesn't matter... he is my BFF that always play around with me, we both joined taek-wan-do some martial art activity together..where ever i go he will be just beside me...hehehe....i was a bit tomboy last time...i did not consider this as love...just that this is the first feeling that taught me to treasure someone... mmmm .... we stayed together until standard 4 before i need to transfer to perlis ... damn...i was so sad that time to leave him and the others... especially him....hahahaa...whatever.... when i was in form 4, we met again.. i invited him to my open house...he was ....mm...wow....not the same Mr.A anymore..hahahaha... yeah i used to teased him a lot cause he was shorter than me...LAST TIME...now...omg~ okay..not need to mention here...but i need to wear 5 inches heels before i match with him....maybe... hahahaa..anyway we still keep in touch in fb.... of course...not close like before...maybe because of the separation and the long distance relationship failed hahahaha...so yeah...he is still my first BFF...hehe....miss u dude!!!..

ok..moving on to the second one...nah~ i wasn't consider him as my BFF but lemme tell you guys, he is my first love hehehe....

was in my secondary school that time...to be exact ...form 1.. hehehe...  i met him when orientation day, he was assigned to be our leader.. well of course, maybe because of his charismatic attitude i fall in love with him...muahahaha...slowly the feeling grows...cis..i still too young to understand what is love at that moment.. but...thanx to my BFF or aka my sifu (sensei) i learned a lot about love from him.. let say.. my sifu is the one who taught me how to write a love letter... omg~... hahaha..

anyway...back to my first love... Mr.M.. hahaha...i'm afraid he will read this so...yeah..
i gave the 'so called' love letter to him, but sadly,... no reply....  :(  anyway....in form 4, he transferred to my class hahahahaha...then slowly we become friend, mm... i was assigned to do the "soap experiment" ?? (chemistry class) with him in my group...hehe...the one that i cannot forget is that when both of us eat 'nasi lemak' together.... but there is nothing other than that...about him... he just accepted me as a class mate... not more than that... oh....how cruel....ceh~ but, what ever...this is what people said...puppy love huh... at least i learned a lot from that experience you know..i know the feeling how to be happy and sad at the same time, how to be jealous...etc... well thanx for teach me all that..i appreciate it....ceh...~ ahahha not sincere at all... hahahaha..anyway he married already, so i wish he could be happy till jannah with his wife....

now lets move on to my love at first sight...cewah~
so, i transferred to ipoh after my mom retired from work and i met HIM!!.... hehehe this time around i think i am more serious about love...kekekeke...(dreaming)
but since i am the new girl at the school.. i heard a lot of gossips about him... mmm... later i will briefly explain about it... hahaha.... now..
why i said he is my love at first sight...malay say" cinta pandang pertama " whatever it is... haha
the first day i entered the new school, not really adapt into the new environment yet... suddenly....jeng..jeng..jeng... he came into my class... his pure face..really attract my attention.. well as a new student  of course i will feel nervous right... but...after i looked at his face...ah......i felt so calmed... mmm... but..but.... hahaha....when i saw his name tag...i was like....OMG~ what a nerd name.. hahaha... yeah i know...sorry for that... haha anyway with that 'nerd' name you managed to stole my heart ..okay...be proud...LOL... hahahaha....
however, (this is the hard part...that i hate)... :(  i discovered  he is damn popular in that school...most of my girl friends had some feeling towards him...nah...~ he is so hot...I KNOW..okay... hahaha but i hate him because one of my girl friends told me that she waited for him to say yes until 4 years... omg...the same case like me...dowh... therefore, i categorize him same level with Mr. M...nah...~ bye2...

however, due to SPM we met again in tuition classes... haha... what a coincidence my friend...
well, due to his popularity, most of my girl friends love to stalked him...haha paid attention to what he wore everyday...whatever la honey... i just join you girls la...don't worry hahahaha.... until when one of my friend told me that, she counted how many times that guy and i wear the same colour of shirt...mm... interesting... and they all started gossip about me and him....wow....i am amazed.. hahaha...but, after awhile, of course, i am a human being, okay, i have heart and feeling too,.. slowly i fall in love with him...oh gosh.... that will be when the eleventh times we wore the same matching colours of shirt....amazing....
hehe then, SPM over.... i prayed to God, if he really meant for me so, please don't stop our faith now....

after a few months.... i met with him again ...well this time around in form 6.... i am amazed, clueless and speechless...hahaha.... i am loss..right now.... oh where are my vocab!!!! dowh.....

we started talk to each other when he just realize my full name....well thanx Mr.popular...cis... than the next day, he brought along letters with him and gave me... i was like...wow....what are these.... and he told me ...all these are my letters that send to his house..and he did open some of my letters ....(huh.....) i was so speechless...no wonder why i did not receive any letters from 'tabung haji' because i wanted to go haj at that time... in my mind, is this the clue that God gave me... is he is the one i am searching for.... still.... it is still unknown for me..i cannot find the answer....mm.... :?
he always fetched me around...went to parties, ceremonies... or open houses.. cause i still afraid to drive last time.. my parents was okay with him...hehehe...got permission so...hahahaha....i am the queen..!! i can go anywhere muahaha.....
there is one event, where he need to perform with me, so we sang a song mm..if im not mistaken 'lemon tree'.. nah~ everyone thought we are couple...hahahahaha i WISH!! LOL....
but eventually he become my BFF...cause we share big secrets together hahahaa mostly about him finding loves...how he felt towards this or that girl... haahhaa.... surprise.... i love you too ..you know...but still i can tolerate with all this shit.. haahhahaa.. joking..joking.... but i did not dare to confess my feeling towards him coz i cherish our friendship more .....mmmm.....

 now after 3 years.. then we slowly separated by distance...mmmm....long distance is my pure enemy i guess..hahaha...he now working at klang..so yeah.... bye2.... my love...hahahaha you know...when i at Macca..i even prayed to Allah, if he is the one so,  please make it easier for us and if he is not the one for me, please help me to forget him....mm....
                               "aluhuma yasir walatu asir"

he told me "when the right time comes, there will be one person for each of us, don't have to worry"
so, i really believe that.... i miss u...T.T

 thanx youtube hehehe




okay..okay..... that's all....daaaaaaa.....
thanx for reading...